Better Days Ahead

Things are looking much better these days. I still have my ups and downs but for the most part it seems to be more ups than downs. It still hurts when I hear of someone new pregnant or someone complaining of being pregnant, which I know first hand that being pregnant isn't all that great at times and I am guilty of complaining myself but now I have a whole new perspective of things. So if you are ever in the presence of someone who has miscarried recently or perhaps someone who is having trouble conceiving at all try to avoid complaining! I could possibly be guilty of doing that as well. I hope not as some of my dearest friends have been in my situation. I can only hope that I did not seem ungrateful for being pregnant or having a child. It truly is great and I can't wait for another chance to have one. I believe that everything happens for a reason and I know that there was a good reason for this unfortunate event but I am hopeful that it will work out next time. To say the least, I am very excited about the "next time".

On a lighter note...

I was fortunate enough to do some Christmas pictures last weekend. I wanted to share some of my little buddy, Tyler. His mom brought him over last weekend so we could cuddle and I could get my T-time! Of course, I always love hanging out his mom too. So here are a few from his x-mas photo shoot!

Anywhere But Here.

I don't even know where to begin. I had thought I would be able to write about it. Instead, I am going to direct you to a page that is very similar to what I went through. (sorry Emily, but you are a much better writer than me, and thanks!) It even happened on a Wednesday. Instead of 5 weeks, 6 days, my ultrasound showed 9 weeks, 1 day. This was exactly 4 days after my ultrasound that showed a heartbeat of 166. http://captainhambone.typepad.com/not_that_you_asked/2007/11/grieving.html
Right now, I just feel empty. I can't get over that there was once something living and growing inside of me and now there's not.

Coming soon May 2009

Yes, we are having another baby! We thought it was time to give Tara a friend to play with so around May 22nd we will be blessed with #2. I am a little nervous about caring for 2 kids as I feel overwhelmed at times with just 1. I don't know how people do it! I guess I will soon find out. We are very excited and hope for a healthy baby. I do not want to find out what it is this time like we did for Tara. I think it will be exciting to have done it both ways. I am sure it will kill me not to find out but I don't mind surprises.

Halloween Fun!

Thursday we went out pumpkin picking. Yeah, nothing like waiting 'til the last minute huh? Tara had a hard time picking since there were so many left. She finally decided on one a little more her size.

Daddy helped her gut the insides. She wanted nothing to do with that part! She is such a girl!

I finished it by carving out eyes, ears and a mouth. With George's claw, it's a little hard for him to do tedious work like that! Tara seemed happy with my work.

She still likes the ones she can hold though.


Tanya, Tara, and I passed out candy at our friend Marc's house. We do this every year and Tara was very helpful and put the candy in the kids' bags without trying to steal any. Next year we will take her out trick-or-treating to a few houses.

She is ready to go in now. She had enough of giving away candy!


Then we went to Grandma and Papa's house to see Mila and Audrey. We tried to get a picture of all 3 girls but it still took some bribing with candy to get it done!

Tara also got a gift from her great-grandma in Georgia. She got her very own sock monkey! We had to give Uncle Christopher's back to him. Thanks for sharing!

Audrey was a bee for her 1st Halloween!


Tara loves to play with Audrey. It's less competition.